Saturday, August 26, 2017

What next

My wooden deck is rotten.
My intercom doesn't work.
No food in the house.
Delivery driver didn't get the message about the intercom.
Locked into my own home because some f#cker meddled with my front door lock.
Now I'm being forced to listen to Aslan play live badly through the walls of my home, which I can't leave.

I'm tired, hungry and in the throws of my cycle.

Saturday, July 15, 2017

Fairies in the Garden




This year's holiday was something I've been dreaming of for over 10 years, a cabin in the wood's. A place I could write and breathe, gather as much information as I could. I came across the cabin's completely by accident while searching for pictures to help me verbalize what I was thinking. The cabin's are situated in a small forest in the Ballyhoura Mountain in Limerick, Ireland. We booked in for 4 days 3 nights in Ballyhoura Forest Luxury Homes and started to plan everything, including the road trip.


We, Sofya my daughter, Aoife her best friend and myself, wanted to do as much driving as possible so we took the long way round. Making the 4 and a half hour trip nearly 9 hours.

 

We managed to pass through 15 of the 26 Counties in the Republic of Ireland, including Dublin, Kildare, Carlow, Kilkenny, Waterford, Tipperary, Limerick, Cork, Clare, Galway, Mayo, Roscommon, Longford, Westmeath and Meath, we might have passed through a few of these several times.

Time was spent writing, posing and mainly relaxing. It was beyond beautiful. The cabins were clean and comfortable. The locals were friendly and helpful, and to top it off there was a Fairy Garden 30 mins away from where we were staying.

I could have stayed longer but the girls were beyond happy to be back in the land of phone service and Wi-Fi!
















Here are a few of the wonders of the trails provided by the forest.





















The best find was Terra Nova a Fairy Garden just 30 mins from the Cabin. 











One of my favorite places on the planet!



Wednesday, December 7, 2016

Slicing through my Soul

Moments happen in life that slice through your soul, for me its when I am being truly honest and open to the world. 

Deep breath.

I see a squirrel, its a post from one of my favorite bloggers The Everyday Adventurer (see below), seeing this post has me smiling and internally shouting "SQUIRREL!" 

It's been an awkward few days in work, tensions have been high and my thinking is "Squirrel! This Squirrel can fix things, who couldn't love this squirrel."

Double tap the image and glance over to my colleague, smiling and happy, truly believing that people are good and things can be fixed with a simple squirrel.


With out glancing at me, eyes boring into her screen, with the tightest lip and tone imaginable I get this response.

"If you think you'er going to make me look at that squirrel, I'm not!" insert eye roll and huffed breath.

Ouch, is the thought that comes to mind. Ouch is what I'm feeling, her delivery of very basic words has cut me through and through. I know I'm in a delicate place right now, I've always been too sensitive. Don't tell me sad stories or you will be mopping up tears for a week. Being cut like that and not for the first time hurts.

Deep breath.

Sigh.

Wipe away the tear.

Don't take things so personally.

Act better.

Be more appropriate.

"Damn it, Jim, I'm a doctor, not a-- (beamed out)"



The Everyday Adventurer

Thursday, October 25, 2012

Sidney Smallwood 17/8 of October 2012

Tis a sad ole day when one must say goodbye.
 Tis a sad ole day when one must cry.
 But I'll always remember the good ole times.
 I'll always remember your smiles.
 I'll always remember your little rhymes.
 I'll keep reminding people of the good ole times.

 Love you Grandad will always remember the good ole times x

Monday, August 1, 2011

Conversations with Relatives!

So with it being a Bank Holiday in Ireland today I spent it like I do most BH days. At my parents house having dinner. Today's dinner was in my Mums (the family home) My daughter joined us along with my dads mother. My dad unfortunately was down in Mayo where he is moving to shortly.

Sofya is paid to hoover the house before its time for dinner and I'm making my homemade Yorkshire puddings. My mum made the rest of the dinner. The house was clean the food cooked and I'm about to start on the puds. I've a recipe that I've used to get amazing fluffy and light puds, but my mum figures I'm using too many eggs and that they need to sit in the fridge... Totally against my better judgement I give it ago, why you may ask...

Well my mum can cook! Both my parents make amazingly good food! She's been cooking longer than me and knows a thing or three about the kitchen. Boy did I wish I didn't listen...

They turned out like little cakes solid all the way through, EPP!! But they did taste nice.

The starter was Leek and Potatoes soup, but since my mum forgot to buy Leeks and or Onions she used carrots and celery instead. It was still really great soup. Dinner was Roast Beef, Spuds carrots and peas with Little roasted spuds on the side and gravy. The Gravy was made by Sofya and it was Delicious! At this point in Sofyas life shes a bit of a gravy conisure.

The meal went down a treat and then desert and coffee for afters Yum! Desert was simple Ice cream and berries with whipped cream on top.

So at the table we had four generations, my Nana Mary Smallwood is 85 and suffering from Cancer. She was given 6 months to live just before her 84th Birthday and her 86th is on the 9th of September. I dont think I've ever met a stronger lady. I have decided to sit her down and find out about her whole life story from the bits I've heard over the years I know its a good story! Then we have my Mother Aleena Smallwood (nee Dorrian) my mum has also been battling with her health in recent years, she suffers from a condition known as Myelopathy. She's had an operations to prevent any further damage to her spinal cord but there was already significant damage done. Then there was me, Nadia daughter of Aleena 28 and a student and a mother to Sofya who is 11 and beautiful and funny!

The conversation seemed to rotate around the stray kitten that has taken up residence in my mothers back garden and how I now want to adopt said kitten!! It branched out to other pets we'd had over the years. What I found the most amusing was the way I was at one point having three totally different conversations at the same time. I was talking to sofya about our old Kittens Bobby and Lily, while then explaining to my mother which Bobby we were talking about (sofya recently got a puppy in her dads house and has called that puppy Bobby also) and in doing that I was also agreeing to my grandmothers point that she believed in animals being outside not indoors.

It struck me that most conversations I have with any of my family members begins with everyone talking about one issue together and then branching off into their individual conversations with me. I sit listen and explain and agree/disagree or simply just nod. I'm not sure if every family is like this, I know mine isn't unique but it just got my attention.

It was nice though the conversation was light, Sofya was well behaved, my mum was on great form and my nan was my nan... no changing that lady...

Though as I sit here in my quite home at 10pm away from my family home, my nan and mum I'm saddened to think that it could be our last. That at some point in my Life my Nana Mary wont be here. That My Dad will live somewhere other than down the road. That at some point I'll be looking after my mother because she wont be able to any more.

I've already lost my sister to England, though we fought like cats and dogs I still Love and miss her. I feel weighed down with responsibility at times too which is a little mean but true.

I hate when my brain goes from really happy and enjoyed to sad and weepy!!!

Friday, July 29, 2011

Its the end of the world as we know it...

So here we are in 2011, July 29th.

Theres only 1 month left to the school summer holidays.
So far I've brought my daughter *Camping in the Wicklow mountains.
Seen the new *Harry Potter along with serveral other movies.
Been on a *Dublin City Bus tour.
Had a trip to the *Zoo and a Picnic in Phoenix park.
We still have a shopping trip and a trip to mayo to do but we'vbeen keeping busy!

I'm still unemployed though Ive got 4 distingtions and have yet to hand in my last assignment.
I seem unable to get jobs that I want but can get jobs I dont want real easy!
Its quite irritating, I want to work close to home, within hours that suit my daughter schooling.
I'm not going to take up a postition in the city just because I can!! That would be like taking 20 steps back!


My daughter is amazingly beautiful, funny and kind.
She got an amasing report from school, I'm so proud of her.
I have it on the fridge and everything!!
She is turning into a wonderful person.

My family is slightly crazy but who's isn't?
I'm worried about them all, some are moving away, some being left behind, some seem to not be coping and some are battling to survive every day!

Hopefully I'll get most of my worries and ideas off my chest by posting them on here...

wish me luck!

Monday, November 5, 2007

The my life from now...























This is sofya and me, if you can believe it, she's 7 now...